There is no fate

there is no destiny

when it happens..it happens

one moment can change your whole entire life.

expect the unexpected

So before thursday everything was going so well..

I was happy cause I knew that I on top of the game, Id nearly finished reading frankenstein and ive written all my notes on romulus my father, as well as my related text.

Since they’re all gones those hours and days ive had into each o theme has gone to waste. I at the moment im finding it hard to get back up . This was such a sudden change. I just woke up from a long nap .

and yeah when im depressed I sleep.

I dreamt that my compute had a virus. Heres what the dream meant:

Virus
To dream that you have a computer virus or a bug refers to something in your life that is out of control. It may parallel something in your life that has come to a crashing end.

To dream that you have a viral infection or contracted a virus suggests that you are experiencing an unpleasant change or an emotional breakdown in your waking life. The virus may be symbolic of your inability to cope with a situation and you see that being sick is a way out. On a more direct note, the dream may signal you to pay close attention to your health, especially to the area of body revealed in the dream

_____________________

that is very true ..
I actually remember thinking ” maybe if I stayed home I can catch up”

” the sad and gloomy skies formed in the far east “

Physical improvements :

- Bleach eyebrows and use grey eye pencil

- Boob job

- work for long term rewards not short term rewards

- better to prevent than cure

- put your needs before your wants

I wish I never had to go on this stupid laptop, now im hooked. it always happens.

laptop = no study done

no laptop = studying done

I wanna throw it on the ground so itll smash into pieces, then ill buy a macpro and study my ass off.

I hate everyone. I dont want to speak to anyone you all suck. I hate you i hate you i hate you. fuckwits.

I dont feel like doing anything :/

I guess I should start writing my english essay at 6.30

yup 6.30 im going off and being productive.

I should hit up that company I saw at St Peter’s and ask what I can do in order to get into an industry like that. Where i can travel to abandoned places with awesome bands and film stuff. Or look further into jobs that involve traveling and going places with extraordinary views and scenes.

Wow.. I just woke up like 10 minutes ago and I had the most amazing futuristic, inspiritional dream. However I was pregnant..wdf >.>

Me and Dk were bored on a school day , that time he knew how to drive :D it was so awesome and he was afraid that I didnt like his car xD but I did.

We planned to embark on this adventure , where would hunt for abandoned library, then buildings. However we didnt have private acess to a computer so we used the teacher’s computer to look up forests. After searching for the nearest forest from “Tempe” , we headed off then I woke up.

This dream made me realise what one thing I really enjoy doing in my life, that is discovering new places. Cause I love real life experiences, it always changes me in some way. And decayed places are so different. Forests are beautiful , and so vivid. ALIVE. I love it!

so I just watched a video called ” respecting yourself”

and it made it realise a few things

If I dont respect myself, no one else will.

Before I was highly respected because I didn’t do much with guys , at all. I was never really sexual. But I have my reasons.

I am only sexual to guys who I dont want respect from, cause all I really want is there body.

But if there IS a guy who is decent and who I want respect from, I’ll be decent around them and avoid showing my sexual side as much as possible.

Honestly I care about what other people think, I care about what those good,kind hearted people think because I dont want my image to degrade in their minds… but I’m young and I still have plenty of time to grow and mature, and of course.. make the right friends.

I guess now what I should do is… NOT flirt with anymore guys, I have D and J , they’re keen, thats all I need. Why should I contiously flirt with other guys only to end up doing nothing with them, and have my reputation degraded. Honestly I’m just going to ignore D and J I dont want to have sex with them :/ I dont even care about sex, and the only time i really carve it is at night, the more I avoid the temptation the better.

Hold my abstinence till my next boyfriend. Im not gonna bother going on facebook or being socially active till after HSC, I want people to forget about me, I want the rumours to die out ( if there are any)
and when im ready ill go back on, and start socialising with the right people who are worth my time, people I can have long friendships with. Or i can meet people at raves and gigs and make friends there. They wont know anything about my past. .. YES THATS RIGHT :D best idea xD

I went to a rave, and finally learned how to gabber.. now Im so hooked onto hardstyle xD

Just like how I went to my first hardcore concert, and then I suddenly went through this tranformation stage where i turned all emo, and now Im turning in a lass HAHAHA

Im so excited tho. Keen on getting a pink hensley jacket, attending more raves, whilst at the same time, keeping my hardcore style on when applicable.

I love how my life is so diverse, I have a bit of everything in it. I can mosh/do windmills, AND gabber. fuckyeahh!

you actually have so much to do..to the point you dont actually have time for facebook, so dont bother going on again

On friday night, you can wax, prepare yourself for the next day, and maintain your appearance for Nadia and Allira’s birthday after that,youre back to being a low maintentance dork 8)

Work for long term rewards not short term.

Just finished my a 24 paged assignment o_o

I feel..so good o_o

I feel..like studying more..

and yeah Im still sticking to the abstinence motto xD called it off for friday ahahah MWAHAH. I can DO THIS :D

gosh studying without a crush is so much better. I really mean it. Its so easy studying without anyone clogging your mind ^-^

There is no fate

there is no destiny

when it happens..it happens

one moment can change your whole entire life.

expect the unexpected

So before thursday everything was going so well..

I was happy cause I knew that I on top of the game, Id nearly finished reading frankenstein and ive written all my notes on romulus my father, as well as my related text.

Since they’re all gones those hours and days ive had into each o theme has gone to waste. I at the moment im finding it hard to get back up . This was such a sudden change. I just woke up from a long nap .

and yeah when im depressed I sleep.

I dreamt that my compute had a virus. Heres what the dream meant:

Virus
To dream that you have a computer virus or a bug refers to something in your life that is out of control. It may parallel something in your life that has come to a crashing end.

To dream that you have a viral infection or contracted a virus suggests that you are experiencing an unpleasant change or an emotional breakdown in your waking life. The virus may be symbolic of your inability to cope with a situation and you see that being sick is a way out. On a more direct note, the dream may signal you to pay close attention to your health, especially to the area of body revealed in the dream

_____________________

that is very true ..
I actually remember thinking ” maybe if I stayed home I can catch up”

” the sad and gloomy skies formed in the far east “

Physical improvements :

- Bleach eyebrows and use grey eye pencil

- Boob job

- work for long term rewards not short term rewards

- better to prevent than cure

- put your needs before your wants

I wish I never had to go on this stupid laptop, now im hooked. it always happens.

laptop = no study done

no laptop = studying done

I wanna throw it on the ground so itll smash into pieces, then ill buy a macpro and study my ass off.

I hate everyone. I dont want to speak to anyone you all suck. I hate you i hate you i hate you. fuckwits.

I dont feel like doing anything :/

I guess I should start writing my english essay at 6.30

yup 6.30 im going off and being productive.

I should hit up that company I saw at St Peter’s and ask what I can do in order to get into an industry like that. Where i can travel to abandoned places with awesome bands and film stuff. Or look further into jobs that involve traveling and going places with extraordinary views and scenes.

Wow.. I just woke up like 10 minutes ago and I had the most amazing futuristic, inspiritional dream. However I was pregnant..wdf >.>

Me and Dk were bored on a school day , that time he knew how to drive :D it was so awesome and he was afraid that I didnt like his car xD but I did.

We planned to embark on this adventure , where would hunt for abandoned library, then buildings. However we didnt have private acess to a computer so we used the teacher’s computer to look up forests. After searching for the nearest forest from “Tempe” , we headed off then I woke up.

This dream made me realise what one thing I really enjoy doing in my life, that is discovering new places. Cause I love real life experiences, it always changes me in some way. And decayed places are so different. Forests are beautiful , and so vivid. ALIVE. I love it!

so I just watched a video called ” respecting yourself”

and it made it realise a few things

If I dont respect myself, no one else will.

Before I was highly respected because I didn’t do much with guys , at all. I was never really sexual. But I have my reasons.

I am only sexual to guys who I dont want respect from, cause all I really want is there body.

But if there IS a guy who is decent and who I want respect from, I’ll be decent around them and avoid showing my sexual side as much as possible.

Honestly I care about what other people think, I care about what those good,kind hearted people think because I dont want my image to degrade in their minds… but I’m young and I still have plenty of time to grow and mature, and of course.. make the right friends.

I guess now what I should do is… NOT flirt with anymore guys, I have D and J , they’re keen, thats all I need. Why should I contiously flirt with other guys only to end up doing nothing with them, and have my reputation degraded. Honestly I’m just going to ignore D and J I dont want to have sex with them :/ I dont even care about sex, and the only time i really carve it is at night, the more I avoid the temptation the better.

Hold my abstinence till my next boyfriend. Im not gonna bother going on facebook or being socially active till after HSC, I want people to forget about me, I want the rumours to die out ( if there are any)
and when im ready ill go back on, and start socialising with the right people who are worth my time, people I can have long friendships with. Or i can meet people at raves and gigs and make friends there. They wont know anything about my past. .. YES THATS RIGHT :D best idea xD

I went to a rave, and finally learned how to gabber.. now Im so hooked onto hardstyle xD

Just like how I went to my first hardcore concert, and then I suddenly went through this tranformation stage where i turned all emo, and now Im turning in a lass HAHAHA

Im so excited tho. Keen on getting a pink hensley jacket, attending more raves, whilst at the same time, keeping my hardcore style on when applicable.

I love how my life is so diverse, I have a bit of everything in it. I can mosh/do windmills, AND gabber. fuckyeahh!

you actually have so much to do..to the point you dont actually have time for facebook, so dont bother going on again

On friday night, you can wax, prepare yourself for the next day, and maintain your appearance for Nadia and Allira’s birthday after that,youre back to being a low maintentance dork 8)

Work for long term rewards not short term.

Just finished my a 24 paged assignment o_o

I feel..so good o_o

I feel..like studying more..

and yeah Im still sticking to the abstinence motto xD called it off for friday ahahah MWAHAH. I can DO THIS :D

gosh studying without a crush is so much better. I really mean it. Its so easy studying without anyone clogging your mind ^-^

There is no fate

there is no destiny

when it happens..it happens

one moment can change your whole entire life.

expect the unexpected

So before thursday everything was going so well..

I was happy cause I knew that I on top of the game, Id nearly finished reading frankenstein and ive written all my notes on romulus my father, as well as my related text.

Since they’re all gones those hours and days ive had into each o theme has gone to waste. I at the moment im finding it hard to get back up . This was such a sudden change. I just woke up from a long nap .

and yeah when im depressed I sleep.

I dreamt that my compute had a virus. Heres what the dream meant:

Virus
To dream that you have a computer virus or a bug refers to something in your life that is out of control. It may parallel something in your life that has come to a crashing end.

To dream that you have a viral infection or contracted a virus suggests that you are experiencing an unpleasant change or an emotional breakdown in your waking life. The virus may be symbolic of your inability to cope with a situation and you see that being sick is a way out. On a more direct note, the dream may signal you to pay close attention to your health, especially to the area of body revealed in the dream

_____________________

that is very true ..
I actually remember thinking ” maybe if I stayed home I can catch up”

” the sad and gloomy skies formed in the far east “

Physical improvements :

- Bleach eyebrows and use grey eye pencil

- Boob job

- work for long term rewards not short term rewards

- better to prevent than cure

- put your needs before your wants

I wish I never had to go on this stupid laptop, now im hooked. it always happens.

laptop = no study done

no laptop = studying done

I wanna throw it on the ground so itll smash into pieces, then ill buy a macpro and study my ass off.

I hate everyone. I dont want to speak to anyone you all suck. I hate you i hate you i hate you. fuckwits.

I dont feel like doing anything :/

I guess I should start writing my english essay at 6.30

yup 6.30 im going off and being productive.

I should hit up that company I saw at St Peter’s and ask what I can do in order to get into an industry like that. Where i can travel to abandoned places with awesome bands and film stuff. Or look further into jobs that involve traveling and going places with extraordinary views and scenes.

Wow.. I just woke up like 10 minutes ago and I had the most amazing futuristic, inspiritional dream. However I was pregnant..wdf >.>

Me and Dk were bored on a school day , that time he knew how to drive :D it was so awesome and he was afraid that I didnt like his car xD but I did.

We planned to embark on this adventure , where would hunt for abandoned library, then buildings. However we didnt have private acess to a computer so we used the teacher’s computer to look up forests. After searching for the nearest forest from “Tempe” , we headed off then I woke up.

This dream made me realise what one thing I really enjoy doing in my life, that is discovering new places. Cause I love real life experiences, it always changes me in some way. And decayed places are so different. Forests are beautiful , and so vivid. ALIVE. I love it!

so I just watched a video called ” respecting yourself”

and it made it realise a few things

If I dont respect myself, no one else will.

Before I was highly respected because I didn’t do much with guys , at all. I was never really sexual. But I have my reasons.

I am only sexual to guys who I dont want respect from, cause all I really want is there body.

But if there IS a guy who is decent and who I want respect from, I’ll be decent around them and avoid showing my sexual side as much as possible.

Honestly I care about what other people think, I care about what those good,kind hearted people think because I dont want my image to degrade in their minds… but I’m young and I still have plenty of time to grow and mature, and of course.. make the right friends.

I guess now what I should do is… NOT flirt with anymore guys, I have D and J , they’re keen, thats all I need. Why should I contiously flirt with other guys only to end up doing nothing with them, and have my reputation degraded. Honestly I’m just going to ignore D and J I dont want to have sex with them :/ I dont even care about sex, and the only time i really carve it is at night, the more I avoid the temptation the better.

Hold my abstinence till my next boyfriend. Im not gonna bother going on facebook or being socially active till after HSC, I want people to forget about me, I want the rumours to die out ( if there are any)
and when im ready ill go back on, and start socialising with the right people who are worth my time, people I can have long friendships with. Or i can meet people at raves and gigs and make friends there. They wont know anything about my past. .. YES THATS RIGHT :D best idea xD

I went to a rave, and finally learned how to gabber.. now Im so hooked onto hardstyle xD

Just like how I went to my first hardcore concert, and then I suddenly went through this tranformation stage where i turned all emo, and now Im turning in a lass HAHAHA

Im so excited tho. Keen on getting a pink hensley jacket, attending more raves, whilst at the same time, keeping my hardcore style on when applicable.

I love how my life is so diverse, I have a bit of everything in it. I can mosh/do windmills, AND gabber. fuckyeahh!

you actually have so much to do..to the point you dont actually have time for facebook, so dont bother going on again

On friday night, you can wax, prepare yourself for the next day, and maintain your appearance for Nadia and Allira’s birthday after that,youre back to being a low maintentance dork 8)

Work for long term rewards not short term.

Just finished my a 24 paged assignment o_o

I feel..so good o_o

I feel..like studying more..

and yeah Im still sticking to the abstinence motto xD called it off for friday ahahah MWAHAH. I can DO THIS :D

gosh studying without a crush is so much better. I really mean it. Its so easy studying without anyone clogging your mind ^-^

There is no fate

there is no destiny

when it happens..it happens

one moment can change your whole entire life.

expect the unexpected

So before thursday everything was going so well..

I was happy cause I knew that I on top of the game, Id nearly finished reading frankenstein and ive written all my notes on romulus my father, as well as my related text.

Since they’re all gones those hours and days ive had into each o theme has gone to waste. I at the moment im finding it hard to get back up . This was such a sudden change. I just woke up from a long nap .

and yeah when im depressed I sleep.

I dreamt that my compute had a virus. Heres what the dream meant:

Virus
To dream that you have a computer virus or a bug refers to something in your life that is out of control. It may parallel something in your life that has come to a crashing end.

To dream that you have a viral infection or contracted a virus suggests that you are experiencing an unpleasant change or an emotional breakdown in your waking life. The virus may be symbolic of your inability to cope with a situation and you see that being sick is a way out. On a more direct note, the dream may signal you to pay close attention to your health, especially to the area of body revealed in the dream

_____________________

that is very true ..
I actually remember thinking ” maybe if I stayed home I can catch up”

” the sad and gloomy skies formed in the far east “

Physical improvements :

- Bleach eyebrows and use grey eye pencil

- Boob job

- work for long term rewards not short term rewards

- better to prevent than cure

- put your needs before your wants

I wish I never had to go on this stupid laptop, now im hooked. it always happens.

laptop = no study done

no laptop = studying done

I wanna throw it on the ground so itll smash into pieces, then ill buy a macpro and study my ass off.

I hate everyone. I dont want to speak to anyone you all suck. I hate you i hate you i hate you. fuckwits.

I dont feel like doing anything :/

I guess I should start writing my english essay at 6.30

yup 6.30 im going off and being productive.

I should hit up that company I saw at St Peter’s and ask what I can do in order to get into an industry like that. Where i can travel to abandoned places with awesome bands and film stuff. Or look further into jobs that involve traveling and going places with extraordinary views and scenes.

Wow.. I just woke up like 10 minutes ago and I had the most amazing futuristic, inspiritional dream. However I was pregnant..wdf >.>

Me and Dk were bored on a school day , that time he knew how to drive :D it was so awesome and he was afraid that I didnt like his car xD but I did.

We planned to embark on this adventure , where would hunt for abandoned library, then buildings. However we didnt have private acess to a computer so we used the teacher’s computer to look up forests. After searching for the nearest forest from “Tempe” , we headed off then I woke up.

This dream made me realise what one thing I really enjoy doing in my life, that is discovering new places. Cause I love real life experiences, it always changes me in some way. And decayed places are so different. Forests are beautiful , and so vivid. ALIVE. I love it!

so I just watched a video called ” respecting yourself”

and it made it realise a few things

If I dont respect myself, no one else will.

Before I was highly respected because I didn’t do much with guys , at all. I was never really sexual. But I have my reasons.

I am only sexual to guys who I dont want respect from, cause all I really want is there body.

But if there IS a guy who is decent and who I want respect from, I’ll be decent around them and avoid showing my sexual side as much as possible.

Honestly I care about what other people think, I care about what those good,kind hearted people think because I dont want my image to degrade in their minds… but I’m young and I still have plenty of time to grow and mature, and of course.. make the right friends.

I guess now what I should do is… NOT flirt with anymore guys, I have D and J , they’re keen, thats all I need. Why should I contiously flirt with other guys only to end up doing nothing with them, and have my reputation degraded. Honestly I’m just going to ignore D and J I dont want to have sex with them :/ I dont even care about sex, and the only time i really carve it is at night, the more I avoid the temptation the better.

Hold my abstinence till my next boyfriend. Im not gonna bother going on facebook or being socially active till after HSC, I want people to forget about me, I want the rumours to die out ( if there are any)
and when im ready ill go back on, and start socialising with the right people who are worth my time, people I can have long friendships with. Or i can meet people at raves and gigs and make friends there. They wont know anything about my past. .. YES THATS RIGHT :D best idea xD

I went to a rave, and finally learned how to gabber.. now Im so hooked onto hardstyle xD

Just like how I went to my first hardcore concert, and then I suddenly went through this tranformation stage where i turned all emo, and now Im turning in a lass HAHAHA

Im so excited tho. Keen on getting a pink hensley jacket, attending more raves, whilst at the same time, keeping my hardcore style on when applicable.

I love how my life is so diverse, I have a bit of everything in it. I can mosh/do windmills, AND gabber. fuckyeahh!

you actually have so much to do..to the point you dont actually have time for facebook, so dont bother going on again

On friday night, you can wax, prepare yourself for the next day, and maintain your appearance for Nadia and Allira’s birthday after that,youre back to being a low maintentance dork 8)

Work for long term rewards not short term.

Just finished my a 24 paged assignment o_o

I feel..so good o_o

I feel..like studying more..

and yeah Im still sticking to the abstinence motto xD called it off for friday ahahah MWAHAH. I can DO THIS :D

gosh studying without a crush is so much better. I really mean it. Its so easy studying without anyone clogging your mind ^-^